Saturday, September 6

Angry

If you can't handle negativity
Then get the fuck away from me
This fragile instability
This blackened creativity
It builds from deep inside of me
I let it out and let it be

Thursday, September 4

Light

I just wanted to stand in your shadow
And you shined on me like a beacon of light
I was just a wallflower
glowing eyes in the night
Your attention to me alarmed me
I was the paper doll
You were the life
The black sticky hole in my chest
As if it didn't exist
And everything was perfectly fine
I knew it was temporary
So something inside of me
Cataloged the memory
as permanently as can be
Forever in my mind
A source overflowing joy
From a man as happy as a clam
To a girl that wanted to be a boy.

Monday, August 25

Revenge is not karma

Revenge is not karma. Karma is not revenge. If people stopped acting out revenge then wars would stop. Revenge is a fuel for war. Not the only one though. If someone wronged you, and you feel the need to do something about it, by wronging them in return, to fight fire with fire, well two wrongs don't make a right. It makes everyone wrong. EVERYONE. So stop with the revenge. Stop with the getting back at those who have hurt you. Because back down their path someone wronged them too. Because hurt people hurt people. I'm not justifying the wrongdoing. I'm not accepting the wrongdoing. I'm just asking you to step up and be the bigger person and break the chain. You can't control other people's behavior, well maybe you might be able to a little. But you are responsible for your own actions. You can break the chain of violence and abuse by refusing to take revenge. By just walking away. This is not the cowardly thing to do. It takes great effort to restrain the anger and restrain the reaction to want to retaliate and 'fix' the problem. The problem is revenge. The problem is violating other people's human rights. Regardless of if you think they deserve it or not. They don't deserve your violence. And they don't deserve your kindness. So walk away and give them neither. Walk away and give them nothing.

Saturday, May 17

Release

I'm restless!

i must confess
my mind is a mess
i have to accept
Reality!

what to do with this energy
the answers not plain to see
it squirms around inside of me
relaxed and calm i want to be
Somewhere Else!

and yet nowhere
the pain i must bare
pretend not to care
but inwards i stare
Darkness!

it blinds my decisions
thoughts like incisions
mind full of visions
with endless revisions
Chaos!

cuts through my mind
no peace i can find
there's not enough time
these thoughts unrefined
Diverge!

Friday, May 16

bravery

Bravery
arising from the realization
that the feeling of missed opportunities
feels worse
than the fear of failure

Don't deny yourself
burying the truth under shallow pleasantries
with no room to breathe
rots under the paper thin social graces

In the fog of the unknown

standing up for your decisions
taking quiet action not reaction

Bravery
arising from calm action
expressing feelings regardless
of the outcome

must resist pareidolia
cant react to imagination

for that's certainly insanity

Monday, May 12

peel it back

deep down inside
there's something you hide
you don't want anyone to know
so you don't let it show

you are angry

you hide behind
a satirical smile
but your eyes betray you
your eyes betray you

a twitch

a pause

i can see through that facade
you pretend to smile
the anger it festers inside
I don't wanna be around
when it tears your wall down

Fear The Destroyer Of Dreams