settled into regime to attain comfortability
predictability
prevention of anxiety
leading to boredom restlessness
frustration feeling trapped in the
nest has become a prison
escaping results in breaking it all
this is not what i wanted it to be

circle cycle circling around again

there is a feeling i wish to embrace and
mold into something physical but
i don't know if i can put it aside
temporarily in order to function
in this life i have built myself
that's where the frustration comes in
tired of being someone else
in order to support myself
wondering thinking is it possible to be
myself and support myself?

i am tired of the charade that has gotten me out of the hell i once lived in.

you may think that you see me but all you see is the travesty that hides the atrocity.